Serious Stuff

Hey Everyone:

I think the reason why I avoid talking about this is because it seems like such a stupid thing. It's embarrassing, really. Some people are addicted to nicotine, or alcohol, or television, or pornography.

I'm addicted to food. I think about it all the time. Even when I'm eating, I think about what I'm going to eat for my next meal. It makes me feel good and horrible at the same time.

As you can tell from my previous posts and from my non-weight loss, I'm really struggling. But it's nothing new. I've been struggling with this all my life.

And I am so thankful that we are a family who believes in the healing power of God. I know it's not going to be easy, but I would plead with all of you to pray for me, to help me beat this addiction. I don't want food to be a god in my life.

And if it's true that food is a god in your life right now, I would encourage you to let us know so we can pray for you, too. Because motivation and willpower and discipline just aren't working for me right now. I need God's help.


Ashley